the new chapter.

mula2 elok je beg McD tu kat sebelah dia. tak perasan lagi tu gaknya

tetiba, eh apetu? macam best je mama?
*sebelah tgn dok pegang toys dia lagik tuh*

yey dapat capai akhirnya =p
*siap guna kaki you!*

rupanya sangat sedap ye beg ni mama. hiks

pict was taken 2 mths ago, when he was 5 mths old.
and today, si cerdik ineh telah 7 bulan 1 minggu usianya.
my oh my, how time flies!

And today marks another big chapter in my life.
It is officially Day 1 of full-time hijab dengan perasaan sukarela-datang-dari-hati.
yes, I'm doing it.
I'm finally doing it!!

I know I might have been a hypocrite, and as much as I tried denying it, I could not.
It sank in and I accepted it and prayed that I will find the right way.
My conscience was not dead, but I had muted it.
Before, I used to get the urge to start hijab, yet I used to fight it.
I'm so used to wearing leggins, having the fanciest hair styles, new hair cut, dying my hair regularly, short tops, etc but I have to give it all up so that means a whole new identity for me.

and of course, a whole new wardrobe =p =p

I've had my time, I have enjoyed life tremendously, tasted the sweetest and the most sour and finally here I am.

I woke up this morning with a determination, like I felt ready to do this at last.
And if other people don't like it, I don't care, because in the end no one has been forcing it on me, this is my decision, supported by dearest hubby, and I am so so so glad that I have finally dug down deep and decided to do it.

At the same time though, I'm still like, shaking.
I'm nervous about what others might think.
But this is what I want.
This is what I'm suppose to do.

Dan sebenarnya, bila betul2 telah bersedia utk berhijab permanently, bukan sekadar mengikut-ikut, maka rasa gembira akan datang sendiri and it was like, relieved that I'm finally doing this.

yes, I really feel good about myself right now.

and of course Hubby is the happiest person ^_^

no, I might not be completed yet, but I'm getting there.
we're getting there.
insha' allah.